Motherhood is tiring, and testing. Every decision you make, every choice you're faced with; revolves around what's best for your kids. Motherhood is stressful and painful. And the hardest bloody thing I have ever done.
It's also rich and rewarding, and the most amazing aspect of my life. It's fun and eventful and always chaotically balanced. It's loud and busy, and always messy.
Motherhood, like all aspects of life, is basically a string of little moments & snippets of time; that link together to make up the whole chain - the bigger picture.
And after another busy weekend, I've again been reminded that Motherhood is a bitter-sweet place of hardships and stress, with big servings of bliss on the side. Another example of how contradicting life can be. But hey, I'll take the good with the bad. The chaos with the peace. The mundane with the gloss. And the busy with the slow.
I'm trying hard to always enjoy the ride of motherhood.
A certain little someone is so very nearly crawling. I think it'll only be a matter of days or weeks. He's falling onto hands and knees from sitting position, and starting to rock back n forth. He's getting frustrated when something is out of reach, but I can also see the determination in his eyes when he wants to get something. He'll be on the move soon. I'm sure of it. My sweet little man.
And his big sister, still amazes me daily. She's smart & creative. She's resilient, empathetic & understanding. Her & I get on so well. She's my buddy. I worry about the teenage years, and if this bond will continue?! I hate the thought of her not wanting to talk to me about what's going through her busy mind. I shiver at the thought of us not getting along.
But right now, I'm making the most of where we're at, in these moments....and the innocent joy that seep from small children.
Watching these two go through the milestones of childhood, makes me so proud. Sometimes I just sit back & watch them play, coz it's a really beautiful sight.
Each time I'm caught up in the stress of parenthood, and I'm feeling frazzled with all of it's responsibilities, I try to draw on; and cherish the good times, and the good feelings that come with being a Mumma to these 2.
Today was filled with lots of those moments....
We had a fun day celebrating London's 1st Birthday. A gorgeous piratey day in the park.
And again, today proved that Ryder is going to be more of an 'outdoorsy' type. At home this morning, he was frustrated & cranky. He was whining - A LOT. I could hardly put him down, and I could definitely not walk away. But as soon as we got to the park, he was as happy as day....just chilling on the picnic rug in the sun and sea-air. He enjoyed some snacks & cuddles with various friends. He smiled and played. Being outside seems to calm him....I've noticed it a few times lately on our park playdates these school holidays.
I had two content children by evening tonight, who both went to bed without protest!